What's Happening........?

Seriously, what the heck is happening? I can remember when life was at a slightly slower pace. NOT a snails pace, but a reasonably doable pace. I remember telling friends I would come over and share a pot of tea with them in the afternoon and not feel like I was slighting anything, anything at all. And those were the days when I had 3 little kids under the age of 7 and no clothes dryer or dish washer or in some cases no car.
We live our lives so much in the fast lane, that when a moment or two becomes available where we can relax for a bit, meet a friend for a coffee, sit quietly and read or knit it becomes impossible to disengage our brain and ON switch and just relax. What’s that about? Why do we feel the need to cram every second with jobs, and commitments and errands and appointments and promises?? And when we actually find that “lost” few moments for R and R, we find our mind leaping to do the things we left undone.

I want a brain vacation. I don’t care so much about the body….just an opportunity to turn the brain off for a bit and mindlessly do some crafting or writing or reading. Not feel accountable to anyone for anything….including myself. Mostly myself.

I don’t think I suffer this “sickness” on my own. I think most of the people that I know are over-committed, over-stimulated, over-committeed (I made that word up) and just plain over the top. We all have forgotten how to say the word no…perhaps we don’t really want to say the word no. But we are cheating ourselves of opportunities to live a completed life. A life where each commitment, each unfinished project (you want projects, I got projects), each undertaking is completed.

I fear what friends and family will say when I am no longer here. “There she lies, the queen of the unfinished project. She lived ½ a good life.” Eh…maybe ½ isn’t so bad. Know anyone who wants a half-knit sleeveless cardigan or a half-written poem or a half-read book??? I’ll never get them finished in this lifetime.